Ok people, I think all of us should put the past behind us, especially the 'friendless and unloved' issue. Me for one, am going to be doing that. I'm not going to pretend the problem is not there anymore, but I'm just going to get on with my life anyway. Start 2005 on a clean slate. No use dwelling on the past. The past cannot be changed, but the future can be made different. I know some people can identify with my feelings and I sympathize with you and I understand what you're going through. Here's to let you guys know that you're not alone, and you'll always still have ME!! And not forgetting God as well. He's the true comforter and friend and I pray that in times of loneliness, you'll look to Him for strength and comfort and know that He is always there for you no matter how hopeless or desolate the situation is. I'm also always here to hear you out if any of you would like to get it out of your system.
2005 is just around the corner. Maybe now is a good time for us to reflect upon the year gone by and make resolutions for the year to come. I know it sounds cliché but I'm still gonna do it anyway. It helps to point my mind in the right direction.
My reflections for 2004:
Waterpolo
Joined sometime in Feb. 'Quit' many times due to unfriendly and cold people. My absence could also be attributed to laziness. Decided to go back about a month ago and now I'm gonna stay for good. People getting friendlier. Perhaps they're more used to me. Went on a few outings with the polo girls and I've managed to have a good time.
A level results
Could be defined as one of the turning points in my life. Didn't manage to make it to NUS so I chose an alternative route - Lasalle. Even though my artistic standards are definitely not up to par, I decided to go in faith anyway and now I'm managing pretty well for a student with no artistic background whatsoever.
Lasalle
New environment.
New curriculum.
New people.
New friends.
Goals for 2005:
Waterpolo and Swimming:
I aim to infiltrate the core team in Women's Waterpolo, even though I'm relatively new to the sport as compared to the other girls. Not to miss training with lame excuses. I also aim to swim in the Olympics!!! First gold medal for Singapore. Hahaha. Ian Thorpe!!
Other sports:
I wanna be good at other sports as well. I've got a Jack-of-all-Trades streak in me.
I miss playing badminton. Stopped once I left secondary school 'cos I switched CCAs in JC. Joined swimming instead. Racket's collecting dust in one corner of my room.
I also miss kayaking and cycling. I shall take time off in 2005 to do those again.
Studies:
Studies-wise, probably manage my time properly. No more last minute work (I always say that every year but in the end...). Give 110% always.
Relationships:
Spiritual - More intimate relationship with God. I want my life to be God-centered.
Family - Grow closer?
Friends - Forge better relationships with everyone else.
Self:
Spend less. Save more.
Be a better person.
Be less lazy.
Be more disciplined.
...and I can go on and on, but you get the gist.